I can do no better today than to quote what I understand Robert De Niro said when introducing the best screenplay nominees at the Academy Awards on Sunday:
“The mind of a writer can be a truly terrifying thing. Isolated, neurotic, caffeine-addled, crippled by procrastination and consumed by feelings of panic, self-loathing and soul-crushing inadequacy. And that’s on a good day.”
If that's a good day, then I've been having a lot of bad days recently!
The only words I would add to what Mr De Niro said are: "And totally disheartened because there seems to be no point in continuing to write stories that hardly anyone reads."
One friend, who bought one of my paperbacks last week, admitted she hadn't read my last two books yet. Of course, I'm grateful for her loyalty in buying my books, but I don't think she realised what her admission actually said to me. She's had those other two books since November 2012, and February 2013, but hasn't been interested enough to actually read either of them. She might as well have said, "I'll buy your book, but I can't be bothered to read it."
I'm sure all writers can relate to what De Niro said, but I'm now at the point of wondering why I put myself through all that for nothing. At the moment (not having added anything to my current novel for over two weeks), I've been quite happy playing Facebook games and adding photos to my Pinterest boards - anything rather than open that Chapter 4 file again!
P.S. My Pinterest file, in case you want to take a look, is at http://www.pinterest.com/paulam3843/